pandapie578

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Herp.

So... this account will be INACTIVE!

I'm currently making a new account....

Just to kind of 'start fresh', I guess!

And because I need a change!

So, once it's all set up, I'll let you know!

So, this doesn't happen often.

In fact, I don't let it happen at all.


But lately...

I've been so unbelievably stressed.

I have tons of... EVERYTHING.
I'm home about 2 hours everyday.
And still have to do tons of homework while going to guard and all sorts of other activities.


I'm used to not sleeping well, but lately my insomnia is getting worse. MUCH worse.

I just can not sleep.

And if I do, it's not deep sleep.

I stay up super late getting homework done, and then go to school really early to get even more work done.



And yet I still try to control myself.

Still tell myself not to feel emotions, not to pay attention.


But today,

Just now, in the shower,

I cracked.


I don't know how to feel.

Because I've taught myself not to feel.

To put up a happy exterior.

Paying attention to myself is a strange, new concept.

And I don't know if I like it.


Thanks for reading.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=br2s0x…


My word....

So calming...

So inspiring...

Hey haters,

Compare THAT to Gaga.

♥♥♥

I MADE HIGH SCHOOL GUARD!!!!

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sooo..


happy....



EEP!~